B***h I’m back.
Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I’m still alive and well (Alhamdulillah. Not very positive about the latter, but still, Alhamdulillah). I’m pretty sure a lot of you have been thinking that I must have lost the interest in blogging. Some of you may have thought that I’ve been so occupied with other stuffs, that I have had no choice but to (temporarily) neglect this space. Well, people, you’ve been right. And wrong.
I think the main reason why I haven’t been as committed as I used to be when it comes to running this blog, is down to the fact that I was experiencing another phase of zit fest. Major, zit fest. Back in my early teen years, they were no strangers to me. They were everywhere, those bloody zits; my face, my chest, my back... ah, puberty days. Glorious. This time round, however, I’m pretty sure it was caused by my inability to identify signs of stress.
Stress is a part of our daily lives. It always have been. You have experienced it. I sure have. But the one that I’d consider as the most stressful period I’ve ever been through was when it disrupted my menstrual cycle. Not to mention the nights I spent profusely sweating while tryna get some beauty sleep in a room with the AC turned on. The sweat was hella smelly as well. Girl couldn’t have her sleeping beauty moment. Bottom line is, stress could potentially mess up your body.
Now, the stress presented itself in the form of tiny little bumps across my jawline and neck. Prior to that, my lower cheek areas got super dry and dehydrated, that I felt the need to switch up my skincare routine. I basically had no proper skincare routine. Back then, I only used The Body Shop Tea Tree Skin Clearing Facial Wash and a cheap moisturizer from Garnier. The mini bumps then started appearing and my skincare routine just wasn’t as effective. Ergo, it wasn’t the skincare routine per se, it was something else; stress.
I feel sorry for myself for not being able to know that I was stressed out. There were even days when I just didn’t want to put some makeup on. I just didn’t care. So, I tried to give myself a little break everytime I felt the need to and take things a bit slower and easier. This also triggered me to learn more about skincare products, which led me to ending my relationship with my TBS Tea Tree facial wash after 10 years of being together (sorry boo, apparently SLS is no good for the skin). Ever since, I’ve completely changed my routine. I think I’m now have a pretty decent skincare regimen, which involves more than just washing and moisturizing my face. I will put up a separate blog post on this one if you’re curious. Anyway, it’s gotten better now, my face.
Another reason why I have been MIA for the past weeks is because I just lost interest in makeup. WILD. OK for real though, don’t take this the wrong way. Lemme explain.
The internet and makeup used to be sooo much fun. One product launch used to get everyone excited, one collab got everyone and their dogs hella ecstatic. The hype, back then, was enjoyable. Today, I don’t get to experience that anymore. I can’t feel the excitement. Now, everything feels very “competitive”. I get it, brands have to tease and release new products every 5 seconds in order to stay relevant in today’s lightning-paced business era. However, from a consumer’s standpoint, being constantly bombarded with new product releases isn’t fun, man. I no longer feel the spark. This doesn’t mean that I have stopped loving makeup nor have I no interest in purchasing new makeup. As a matter of fact, I’ve been wanting the Make Up For Ever Aqua Lip Liner in the color 3C (much influenced by Ms. Allana Davison). Never thought I’d be into nudes, but hey, people change. And oh, it’s not even a newly released makeup.
I think that explains why I’ve been losing my mojo. But worry not, for I’m getting it back. I’m even starting to put some makeup on again. It’s just simpler now and only involves 3 products (usually it involves a full-on smoky eye). Expect to see a whole post just all about that soon ;)